Today was a bit empty. I went to SSC this morning, I had a test to determine which major should I take for college. Spent all day long at home, called my boyfriend and surfed on the net. My family and I went to the mall and I walked straight to the bookstore to buy some pens and an eraser. I didn’t want to see the books anymore, actually. No money, honey.

But then I decided to take a look. I really want to read Dee’s Rectoverso or Vladimir Nabokov’s Lolita. I got no money, Dee’s book is very expensive and I want to read the English version of Lolita, not the Indonesian one. I walked through the bookshelves and wanted to find Into The Wild on true stories bookshelf. I found Fajar Nugros’ book instead: My Girlfriend is My Favourite Actress. I bought it.

courtesy of sutradarakacangan

There is my name on the acknowledgements page, I’d love to thank my brother for that. Fajar treats me as his long lost little sister, so, vice versa. He’s not the type of person who pampers his loved ones. He doesn’t spoil me with words or even his behaviour. But, I assure you, he makes me strong. In my harsh days, everytime I was down I always texted him, and his replies show that he wants me to reach my dreams, to break the barriers, and the most important of all… he has faith in me. He has always believed that I can do this, I can do that. Just like one of my favourite quotes from Walt Disney:

“If you can dream it, then you can do it.”

He also used my name as a character’s name in one of his stories. It’s the reason, the beginning of every conversations we had. It was the start.

me & Fajar – preparing for Bunuh Diri Massal :)

Just like other brothers out there, he has negative sides also. He annoys me a lot sometimes. Just like everyone else, he thinks that I’m a little child, therefore he loves to make fun of me, geez. The hell with it, he’s one of my inspirations. He’s always sleepless and he’s proud of that habit.  He works all day and night long, even in his holidays, or when he was ill. He is the line producer of Doa yang Mengancam, he directed Dilarang Mencium di Malam Minggu and Mati Bujang Tengah Malam. He also wrote the story of Si Jago Merah and has published 3 books: Buaya Jantan, Cara Pinter Bikin Film Dokumenter and what I bought today.

I didn’t want to write about him, actually. It flew through my fingers on this black keyboard. What I wanted to share was…

I hate going to bookstores. I am envious. I used to see an orange book, with my name on it, being put in one of those shelves. I want to see another, and another, and another. But yeah, my latest manuscript was rejected by two publishers, I know that it was not good enough. I want to have the time and the guts to write. I miss reading comments about my writings. I miss seeing my book being placed in one of those shelves. I miss Googling the title of my book. I miss those little things. I am becoming less and less creative right now.

Will you see my book in one of those shelves in one or two years? I hope so. :)

50 kilometers from London


Have you read this? That day, I still sent the application form. It was not even fulfilled yet, I only filled half of it. One day later, I got a call from Fajar Anugerah, a British Council staff. He and his team were going to wait for my essay video. So, I recorded the video in my room (while other applicants recorded theirs at the beach, garden, park, museum, etc) and sent the link to them (though Mum was a bit irritated because I couldn’t bring her camera to the Disney Live event because of that!). It’s a bit hard to say this but, on October 31, 2008, I got an e-mail from Louise Cowper, from British Council UK, saying that I am being selected to attend Global Changemakers Guildford Forum 2009 in Guildford, UK, on January 2009. I’m so excited! Wish me luck in representing Indonesia. If I’m good enough, I’ll be flying to Davos, Switzerland, to attend the World Economic Forum 2009.

Alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin. Thank you, Mum, Dad, Astrid Wulandari, Fajar Anugerah, Hugh Moffatt. Although I haven’t even departed yet, I am happy already.

Find out about Global Changemakers.

Overheard in Jakarta


I know you guys must have read this hilarious blog! But, I sent my personal stories to the administrators and they put it on that blog.

29 October 2008

Tes Orang Enggak Faham Linguistik…

Teman #1: “X, lo mau ikut tes TOEFL nggak?”
Teman #2: “Hah? Bayarnya berapaan sih?”
Teman #1: “Murah kok. 25 ribu, soalnya kolektif sama sekolah.”
Teman #2: “Mau deh, mau. Tapi tes TOEFL-nya nggak Bahasa Inggris kan?”

Didengar oleh teman #1 yang mulai frustasi dan mempertanyakan eksistensi temannya sebagai manusia.

*I am Teman #1 lol*

09 October 2008

Dan orang bilang ngobrol di HP itu adiktif

Dua orang ibu-ibu yang tiba-tiba berjumpa di pusat perbelanjaan.
Jeung #1:
“Jeung X! Halo!”
Jeung #2: “Ya ampun, Jeung Y!”
Jeung #1: “Apa kabar?”
Jeung #2: “Kabar baik. Lagi dimana?”

Plaza Senayan, didengar oleh anak salah satu jeung yang akan mencari tahu isi tagihan telepon seluler ibunya.

*I am anak salah satu jeung’s friend*

Sure, you can laugh. Leave comments right away, don’t even hesitate! :-D



a gathering Bunuh Diri Massal writers, readers, and band which inspired.

November 5, 2008 @ 7 PM – done
Ruang Tamu BREWWW! Kemang

Hosted by:
Fajar Nugros
Alanda Kariza
Irene Yohanna

The band:
Everybody Loves Irene
Marche La Void
Elemental Gaze
Little Space Donkey

Bunuh Diri Massal (Mass Suicide) is a phenomenal short story written by Fajar Nugros and Alanda Kariza. The story spread on internet and inspired many people to wrote their own side story of Bunuh Diri Massal. All story published on Everybody Loves Irene appear as the soundtrack for this short story. They used Flash to embed the sound and the story. What a smart idea and they called it “Short Story Clip” as replacement for Video Clip. Be there!