My Choice, My World
11 Sep
“Alanda, where do you go to college?” is the question that I avoid the most.
One month ago, I had to face a difficult situation. At the same time, I become the only person who has ever received a full scholarship from Bina Nusantara International University. I also received admission fee reduction from Universitas Multimedia Nusantara and I got accepted in University of Indonesia to study Criminology. How lucky, right?
I had the yellow jacket in my hands already. My parents were incredibly happy that I got accepted into that uni, so were my family and friends. They were proud, they congratulated me. Everyone thought that I must be smart that I have succeeded in getting into that uni. But hey, I got accepted because the major I chose were not as popular as Management or Communications. I once thought, “If I were meant to study in UI, I’ll get it on SNMPTN.” And apparently, Alhamdulillah, it did happen.
I have spent my days in UI for a couple of weeks when I felt like there was something really, really wrong and I don’t know what that is. I met the most brilliant and opinionated people from all across the archipelago, I had a very big campus! I was going to study in the campus that is desired by everyone, with pride. Why can there be anything wrong? Moreover, I chose the major because I was interested in the courses. My plan: in 2010, I am going to go for another round of SNMPTN. I’ll get into FHUI.
Now this is ridiculous, but I always cried whenever I met anyone from FHUI. They ate my heart, my dreams. I tended to daydream whenever I passed FHUI. I felt so stupid. That was why I made my pledge. I had to get into FHUI, whatever it takes.
Suddenly, another thing ate more of me. I found out that even if I got into FHUI in 2010, I would not be able to change my major and transfer my grades. I will need to pay another 20 million, another OBM, another OSPEK, I will have to start from scratch. But, what for? My family is not that wealthy. I have little sisters who still need to obtain their basic education. I might seem “okay” financially for you, but to be honest, I still cannot pay my tuition fees by myself. If next year I still have to pay another 20 million to reach my dreams, well it’s an investation. But, I know my capacity. If we can’t, I don’t think we have to force ourselves, especially when it’s related to other people.
I finally realised that there will be no turning back. If I pay UI tuition fees, I will have to study there. Four years. Graduated from Criminology. Work in the criminology field.
Thus, where shall I put my dreams? Should I wash them away?
I missed my dreams. I missed my old activities. Everything was too campus-centered and I could not help it. There were department gathering, faculty gathering, batch gathering, alumni gathering, OBM, and courses. It was worse than high school. Yet there, you’re nothing but a number. UI people won’t know you. You will graduate and enter another jungle.
I somehow became afraid that I won’t be able to grow there. There is this fright I cannot explain. I was afraid that I would lose my activities. I was scared that I was going to lose the things I have built for years. I was scared that UI will take one piece of my UNO Stacko and destroy it. Only for OBM and OSPEK, I had lost a lot of opportunities, the opportunities that would mean a lot for my life. Do you think they would know what you do and achieve? No.
So, that day, on the first day of OSPEK, I went to UI with my dad. I already wore the white-and-white uniform and the leaf nametag, saying that “I have to do this”. I turned back at the Psychology Roundabout. You know what I did next? I WENT HOME. Someone told me to go home. It was not a devil. It was my heart. Somehow.
I tried to cool my head when I got home. I assessed both uni for multiple times. I talked to successful people I know, from Sitta Karina, Yorgi Gusman, Fajar Anugerah, and my friend Ghian, to seek a path. Where should I go, actually? They know me well and they are successful in their own ways.
I prayed too. I asked God, what should I choose? My heart has chosen the international university, actually. Though I actually wanted God to say “UI” so I could make my parents proud, see me graduate in Balairung from UI… God said Binus too. Or maybe, God only said what rings in my heart. So, I did tell my mother that I wanted to go to Binus International, in tears. My mother said yes, though she was pretty disappointed – she graduated from UI after all. But I also promised her that I am going to be a successful person, and I will send my sisters to school.
So, what’s with Binus International? Here are the list to encounter your negative comments:
- I got scholarship there. Financially, UI is more expensive than Binus International. I want my sisters to get a better education than I did, and I will not let my parents pay too much for my education and abandon them. My sisters are going to be successful people. They are much smarter than me, I suppose.
- BI has international curriculum. So, if I got into Harvard or Oxford (yeah, right), it will be easier to transfer my grades with the same curriculum.
- Every lectures are delivered in English and some of the lecturers are expatriates.
- I’m going to learn International Business there, become a social and creative entrepreneur, create jobs, and build a school. That’s luxurious enough in my opinion!
- By studying in BI, I would be able to choose: study for 1 year in Cologne Business School to get double degrees, or study in UNSW (one of Australia’s ‘The Big 8’), Solbridge (South Korea) or University of Wollongong (Dubai). To be frank, I am more interested to study there instead of UI. So I can bring heaps of things home, so I can have different skills than the ones who studied in UI, UNPAD or ITB. Remember, UI has millions of graduates. Who knows that I might be able provide different perspectives and solutions from them? Indonesia needs diversity and dynamics.
- They got Masters Track Program, so I will hopefully to finish both Bachelor and Masters Degree in 9 semesters. Amen.
- BI appreciates what I do and they are very supportive, both morally and materially. They give students to space to grow academically and non-academically.
- I can still continue my activities outside the campus because the lectures schedule are more flexible and there are no unimportant gatherings. Well, at least, not too much.
- Seniors don’t have seniority, not at all. Just like in the US, they don’t want us to call ‘Kak’. One campus, one BI. No one labels us by “sok pintar” when we express our aspirations. Because in that campus, they do.
- One batch only has 300ish students. Lecturers are close to you. Lecturers know you. Even the executive dean knows you. All lecturers know that I established The Cure For Tomorrow, for God’s sake!
- 90% BI graduates last year have been accepted in companies before they had their graduation ceremony. Two of them got $2,500 as their first salary. Some of them got into Stern and Stewart accounting firm in Singapore, and there was even a graduate who now works in Google. The key? Personal recommendations. No, they don’t let you use Binus Career. They recommend you to companies.
- We are taught to think and work like Western people, but we are also taught to act like Eastern people. Beautiful.
I dare to say that I don’t regret this decision. Not at all. Yes, I tried my best to get into UI. Right. But, I know, whenever I got into college, I can be a successful person if I want to. I am sure that in this place, I would be able to grow. I will be something special instead of being drowned in the ocean of people, or unnecessary “nongkrong-nongkrong” just like what high-schools had.
Maybe you will spit on this decision. But this is,
My choice. My world. You only read the story.
and i daresay you made the right choice.
@a
I know. Alhamdulillah.
bener al, jgn liat masuknya, liat dong lulusannya
(pdhl sebenernya msh iri sama yg dapet itb hahaha)
@echaa
Iya dong
You’re so brave, that’s tough decision. May God always bless you and your bright future :]
@Tara
I hope so. Thank you :3
heey, i like this post. i like how u can beautifully writing down what’s on ur mind. and to be honest, at the first seconds I read ur blog I feel I found umm ‘friend’ because I also feel like I have to attend simak ui 2010. I am sooooo into communication major of ui, but somehow I weirdly landed in Malang, Brawijaya university , took politic major. btw, do u know Brawijaya? yes, it’s not that famous actually. i was accepted at Universitas Multimedia Nusantara just like you, in communication major and Psychology uin by UMB, but I waste them all and now by three weeks in malang, i sense something really wrong,i feel that it’s not worth it to study faaaar away from home for just a uni that not even better from those which are much closer and I decide to attend simak ui 2010 choosing communication (again). but, is it really that expensive?? around 20 millions? i am soo unsure with my life now. hope u can email me or do u have facebook?? may i add u??
regards,
andri.
@andri
I only expressed what I had in mind, really. Maybe that’s what happens if you speak from your heart :3 Yes, of course I know UniBraw. That’s an awesome uni, you know! I’ve sent you an e-mail about the tuition fees for UI. Btw, I think UniBraw is a good uni, and I believe it will be ‘worth it’ someday. Well, it’s up to you, but I personally interested in Politics and I think UniBraw is good. From what I have experienced, getting into UI is like buying a new, expensive car. You wanted it so much because it looks good on you, but when you get into it, it was… ordinary. 
Good luck on choosing!
Hi! I’m glad you like it
big and brave choice. every person have their own path. let’s do our best and God will do the rest. no matter you stay in UI or another uni.
keep fight, dear..
@dela
I know! And, I will <3
hey salam kenal! baca posting an ini bener2 mengingatkan gw ke satu taun yg lalu. dilema2 kuliah impian and how i experience it. rada2 mirip walau beda kasus. intinya, gak dapet impian awal (i planned to go to smu / ntu). sedih dan bimbangnya gak tergambarkan, dan cukup berlarut2 sampe berbulan2.
tapi setelah setaun ngejalanin yg sekarang, wah ternyata dapet banyak bgt hal2 yang gak disangka sebelumnya. dan peristiwa kegagalan kuliah taun lalu, justru bisa jadi salah satu cerita paling indah untuk gw ceritain ke orang lain.
akhirnya pengalaman gw bisa ngajarin satu hal = life will find a way
@arimbi
So true. Let God leads the way
tiap pilihan punya konsekuensi, tinggal kita liatnya gimana
semangatkmyangdisana.
@Ribkhaa
Insya Allah.
well,i proud of you nda. gak semua orang berani untuk menentukan pilihan. bahkan untuk hidup mereka sendiri. yeah,it’s your own decision,your own life
dan pastikan kamu bertanggung jawab sama sesuatu yang udah kamu pilih ya,jangan kecewakan mama papa.
@rizky maretha
I won’t let them down.
I’m proud of you, you made a very brave decision about YOUR life Al :]
And I know if you can do anything you want, you can be anything you wanna be. That’s the good thing I like from you, you make dreams into reality. Making decision means taking a risk, it’s normal. No risk, no decision.
Whatever you do, do your best. Oh why should I tell you that? You know that better than me ;]
Pursue your dreams, Al !
Heheeeyyy thank you! People need to start making their dreams into reality, trust me. The world will become a better place. Yes, I’ll do my best, I’ll pursue my dreams and happiness
Thanks for the very nice comment!
I was stunned, and totally amazed with your decision. It was tough, yet hard to make. You’re so brave.
By the way, your english is amazing. It’s like you know any words to express your exact feeling. I like that very much.
You know what. I’m going on 16, and I’m thinking to be a wonderful girl like you (:
err do you mind to pay my blog a visit? thanks a lot!
@regina
Yep, it took a lot of courage, and I meant, A LOT. OMG, my English is not that good but I hope by studying in an international uni, my English will get better and better. Yes, I’ll read on your blog tomorrow. It’s 1.48 AM in the morning. Just got home from a midnight of G-FORCE! You should watch it, guys!
ok
BEST COMMENT EVER.
Dear Alanda,
I wish this blog has “like this” option like Facebook and I will give this post two thumbs up! hehehe
Anyway, always trust yourself. Every decision that you take has its own consequences, whether you go to UI or BI. Maybe you can read my post in my previous blog. It was made 2 years ago. Maybe that post will empower you. It seems like supporting your decision. I experienced this kind of disguise too.
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.viewcustom&friendId=19643043&blogId=325628494&swapped=true
CHeers!!
Hi Afra,
Thank you for the link and support, I’ll read it tomorrow because it’s 1.49 AM already… Thank you so much Afra! I like your blog btw!
Yes, I do hope that Wordpress put that feature.
well, Nda, what I just can say, ALWAYS, every time I see your post about yourself : I’m really PROUD of being your friend. Although we never met that you refused my request in Facebook
Nda, memang, orangtua itu adalah alasan terberat bagi seorang anak yang soleh/solehah (insya Allah, Amin), yang juga saya rasakan. Alhamdulillah sekali ortu kamu mau support, dan Alhamdulillah sekali juga, kamu masih punya pilihan. Nggak usah dengerin komentar yang aneh-aneh, percaya diri kamu pasti selalu bisa. We always support you, Nda
Sukses dengan IYC-nya juga ya. Kapan2 bikin acara di Bandung kek, hehehehehe
@Sheyka
Semoga bisa segera bertemu. Ya yang di Bandung undang-undang dong! Kita lagi ngobrol-ngobrol sama Satoe Indonesia nih 
Terima kasih banyak atas dukungan 24/7-nya ya! Hehehe
Yeah. Gw sedikit bingung pas nggak ngeliat loe di UI belakangan. Haha. and someone told me that u moved to Binus.
Yeah, memang UI agak sedikit merampas aktivitas gue belakangan ini. Tapi, yeah.. dan juga, memang pada awalnya gw agak sedikit terganggu, ketika gw speak up, dibilang sok pintar. Hahaha. (typical maba banget). but, gw menyadari bahwa ini juga ada manfaatnya, dan gue memang harus sedikit berkorban. at least di semester pertama ini.
Dan gue cukup beruntung, di HI nggak se-rebek jurusan lain, yang ngumpul-ngumpul “nggak jelas” (meskipun dibilang; ESENSI nya banyak), dan tugas tugas yang bener bener aneh..
Gw masih cukup beruntung di HI, orang orangnya lebih open minded, dan gw justru bisa banyak belajar.
I totally agree nda. This nation needs diversity. Gue bisa belajar juga dari loe, dan segala yg loe dapat di BINUS.
Good Luck Ya!
@iman
Sepertinya berita gue pindah cukup menyebar ya, padahal gue cuma bilang sama ketua jurusan aja lho.
Iya, gue tau pasti ada manfaatnya, dan harus sedikit berkorban, tapi gue nggak sehebat lo untuk bertahan di situasi seperti itu. Justru setahun ini adalah masa yang paling penting buat gue, buat hidup gue, nggak hanya di bidang akademis tapi juga di bidang akademis. No need to talk further about this, I’ll sound arrogant.
Ya, alhamdulillah ya lo bisa dapat HI. Kalau gue dapat di HI atau Hukum mungkin gue akan bertahan sebisa mungkin, karena itu memang impian-impian gue. Sayangnya, gue nggak dapat privilege untuk coba jalur PMDK (diprioritaskan untuk yang kurang mampu, jadi nggak mau nyelak :p), dan aplikasi gue ke UI juga dicuekin sama Direktur Pendidikannya. Remember, we’re only numbers?
Ya, insya Allah bisa berbagi, yang gue dapat nggak cuma dari Binus International, tapi juga dari UNSW atau Cologne. Amin. Thanks ya. Lo juga good luck. Buat UI bangga. Buat diri lo nggak menyesal masuk UI ya
hello alanda.. salam kenal.
entah kenapa gw pas baca tulisan ini jadi.. merinding. speechless. you’re so independent! terus berjuang n semangat ya
ternyata udh sempet keterima di UMN ya? skrg gw disana ambil komunikasi, nyaris jd temen satu kampus deh kita.. hehe..
btw, your english is so fluent! bikin enak bacanya
@mariska
Hello, Mariska. Salam kenal juga. Ah, thank you. Indonesian people have to be independent, we have gained our independence by our own hands, right? It’s in the blood. Iya, gue juga seharusnya ambil Komunikasi, tapi mungkin jalannya nggak lewat UMN. Alhamdulillah, mungkin karena kebanyakan nonton DVD. Semoga tahun depan sudah fluent bahasa lain, amin.
Ok nda. It’s ok. gw yakin loe udah bisa nentuin mana yg terbaik buat loe kok. Hehehe, Iya. kabar loe pindah kayaknya udah banyak yang tau. hehehe. maklum, alanda bukan orang biasa kan? hehehe
Yeah. I see nda. memang di UI, kayaknya ga begitu aware dg aplikasi kita. Gw masih inget, gw apply di UGM buat jalur prestasi dg brp international certificates, cuma krn dipandang “non-akademis” itu jd nothing. hahaha. Untungnya UI masih cukup mau menerima.
Hehe. Bener, even. di awal awal kuliah gw juga sempat ragu antara menerima tawaran scholarship HI UNPAR atau HI UI. Yeah. Moga2 UI memang pilihan tepat nda
eh loe apply buat peer fasilitator di GC ga?
@iman
Alhamdulillah, UI sangat apresiatif ya sebenarnya (ke elo maksudnya). Mungkin apa yang sudah gue lakukan selama ini untuk standar UI masih terbilang biasa saja. Amin, semoga pilihan tepat ya, biarpun semua orang bilang HI UNPAR #1 dan UGM #2. 
Gue juga kepengen di UNPAR sebenarnya, tapi nggak boleh kuliah di luar kota (kecuali Tangerang, Depok, Bogor :p).
Alanda di UI sih mahasiswi biasa
Yes, apply dong. I need the skills for IYC. Doain aja ya. Lo jadi daftar GCM? Udah ada kabar? Kemarin udah ada yang ngabarin gue kepilih untuk mewakili Indonesia, namanya Dinar. Semoga ada 2 orang lagi dari Indonesia ya biar slotnya terisi penuh. Jangan kayak kemarin pas gue, berangkat sendirian aja. Hahaha.
you’re so brave, seriously!
idk if i were in that situation would i make the right decision..
i wish you good luck, and shine wherever you are.
baca ini jadi bikin gw mikir lagi, but in my case it’s not to decide where i should go to college. it’s about SKRIPSONG! gosh, which one should i choose? topik yg paling gw suka tapi ga ada pembimbing ato topik yg lain tapi dengan pembimbing yg sangat ok?
haha,, jadi curhat kan gw.
anw, GOOD LUCK!!
@nene
Menurut gue pribadi sih topik yang paling lo suka aja. Pembimbing kan nggak harus pembimbing formal. I am sure that there are a lot of people out there who are willing to help you on your thesis. Good luck juga ya skripsinya!
It took a lot of crying and courage to be this brave. Amin! Thanks for the wishes, you’re so kind
hi alanda! salam kenal dari saya
tau kamu gara2x ada kawan yang kasih link ke sini hehe
eh, btw, maaf ya pengen komen tapi OOT dari tulisan kamu..
tertarik banget dengan track recordnya alanda, dan pengen banget bisa wawancara kamu untuk web Indonesia Berprestasi (http://indonesiaberprestasi.web.id) untuk kategori Profil Prestatif..
mungkin kalo sulit kopdar kita bisa wawancara via YM saja, tapi harapannya sih pengen banget bisa ketemu Alanda hehe
seandainya masih di UI, mungkin bisa mudah ketemu yah.. soalnya saya juga anak UI.
hehe, but it’s up to you how, lewat online pun tak masalah
Leni
Web Admin & Founder Indonesia Berprestasi
@Leni
Hey. Aku udah bales e-mailnya ya. Looking forward to see you
I was happily surprised you’re accepted in UI, and after you wrote to anakUI.com, to be honest, I’m looking forward to meet you in person in UI, learn and take as many inspiration as I can from you, a very extra-ordinary person for me..
but it was your choice to go to BI, and I’m very happy you’ve found your “Lentera Jiwa” and follow your passion.. GOOD LUCK, and never stop inspiring!
I hope you don’t mind to visit UI again.. someday I’ll invite you to anakUI.com forum.. we plan to have regular offline sharing session from anakUI to anakUI every month.. there’ll be some people present and Q&A session.. it’s a networking forum, basically.. occassionally, there’ll be guest speaker, and I hope you don’t mind if I invite you
btw, one of my friend, she’s founder of http://indonesiaberprestasi.web.id, want to meet you and have some conversation to published in indonesiaberprestasi.. she’ll mail you, because I’ve sent her your email.. just wait for it..
thank you very much,
salam semangaat!
Ilman
@Ilman
I only wanted to be in FHUI but I failed. But come on, I am not ‘that’ inspiring. I am just an ordinary girl who’s trying to find my own peace of mind, and my own luck. I hope I can always inspire people though.
Sorry we didn’t have the chance to meet in UI
Of course not! I’ll be happy to visit UI again when the schedule’s right. Yes, I’ve replied her e-mail. I think anakUI.com should become IYC’s media partner
I like your braveness and your decision
There are a lot of people will tell this and that but the most important thing, you have to believe to what yourself tell you. seriously , you do not want to end up with regret in your old self later. your choice, your future. That’s what my mentor of my church always telling me 
Have a great future ya alanda!! Waiting for your next book even though I’m not in Indonesia. hehehe.
@Meiggy
WHERE ARE YOU MEIGGY? Nanti kalau bisa dikirim deh – ya kalo nulis lagi. Amin.
I like your comment
Nda. hasil GC udah keluar belum? udah dapat kabar siapa aja Indonesians yg dapat kesempatan thun ini?
gw ga yakin. hehe
@iman
Sabar aja ya. Semoga aja dapet. Kalopun enggak, I’m sure you’ll get better things 
Ada 3 temen gue yang daftar, dan 1 yang gue nggak kenal. Dari 3 temen itu (termasuk lo), yang ‘lapor’ ke gue kalau keterima baru 1. Yang 1 lagi, serta elo, masih menunggu. Katanya sih ada slot maksimal 3 orang per negara. Temen gue ini yang keterima namanya Dinar Thalieb, dia sih sekarang lagi kuliah di Canberra. Temen gue yang 1 lagi juga masih berharap
Good one!!! At least loe udah bisa netapin kemana loe akan melangkah. Itu udah lebih dari cukup dari sekedar nama besar sebuah universitas tapi jurusan yang loe ambil gak sesuai hati nurani loe. Dear Alanda, so proud of you!!!
@maddy
Alhamdulillah, glad that I’ve made you proud
I rarely told people, but actually I got into my college just because I was a bit embarrassed if I didn’t study science and if I didn’t do it in that college. Pretty lame.
Dan menurut gue, you got it right. Salah pilih sekolah cuma akan bikin susah selama 4 tahun. Lucky me, someone was willing to give me a chance to prove that I can do my job tho I don’t have the education to do so.
So, congratulations. I know you’re gonna do great
@lilylove
Thank you for your support and faith in me <3
But I heard from Bie that you studied your major because you wanted to formulate great cosmetics. I find it very cool!
Apart from the pride being a yellow jacket yes, its about how much i have to pay to UI first of all,
And, gimme five, me myself decided to leave my dentistry study @ UI, you tore apart about FH, for me its about FE, i want it like crazy,
Yah al, i had couple of most beautiful weeks in my life yesterday @ UI, ktmu orang2 ky lo, fahmi, lita, jovi, aris, nisa, ismi, yosu, anak2 OBM laen, kelompok OKK gw, anak2 asrama, senior, bnyk deh org2 hebatnya, gw setuju sama lo, pride mereka gede bgt,
Dan ketika permohonan BOP B gw g dikabulin, gw mulai mikir realistis, another 20 millions? Adek gw setaon lg ud kuliah dan, gw jelas blm bs cri duit sbnyk itu, emg kadang ada kepengenan buat mikir “ok ini investasi” tp investasi jg harus realistic, lo dpt bnyk kesempatan and thank god lo bs dpt tmpt yg ga kalah OK,
Sama juga selama abis OBM gw jg ngerasa, this is so wrong being here, yah pdhl gw pgn jadiin UI batu loncatan gw *tadinya* buat S2 ke Public health di SNU, tp gw mikir, dtmpt gw skrg gw jg bsa kog, ga harus di UI,
Ahahaha
Gw yakin lo bs sukses di binus inter, hawa2 lo, semangat lo tu bagus bgt al, jgn mau stuck jg, break the limit, ohoho…
Bismillah aj ini yg terbaek. Amin.
Asal ada PRIDE di dada lo, mau kemana aj lo pergi, we can do it, smangat all
Sukses buat IYC nya, gw suka tweet lo “dia dulu bukan siapa2″ keren
@Rosi
Dan yes, FHUI bikin gue patah hati banget… :’(
Seneng banget ada yang pemikirannya sama banget sama gue. Di kampus gue juga ada kok yang ngelepas ITB bahkan untuk belajar major yang sama di BI. Gue juga seneng banget, dan terinspirasi, sama temen-temen OBM! Kangen banget sama Joviii :’( Mereka semangatnya besar banget, gue salut, dan ternyata sebenarnya semangat gue belum sebesar itu
Insha Allah bisa sukses kok di mana aja. Kan tergantung kitanya aja. Gue nggak mau berkarya cuma 3 tahun terakhir, gue mau setahun pertama guepun berarti. Dan itu sulit direalisasikan kalau pulang sore harus ketemu tugas-tugas yang bahkan dikasihnya bukan sama dosen.
Sampai jumpa ya. Siapa tau nanti gue main-main ke UNAIR!
Public universities are not always the best.
yes they got the name. they got the “embel2: universitas negeri loh!”, and maybe a bigger chance to get to companies because of the “embel2″ thingy.
me personally, i left the chance of being unpad’s stundent (i failed UI’s communication :p), and now, here i am, in a small campus that specialized in communication major.. until now, i never regret choosing this campus instead of that public university. coz i know, i got a bigger chance here..
so, follow ur heart. do what ur heart say. and prove ur best.
btw, nda, i’m just curious. you’re doing a very impressive job in writing, why dont u choose journalism as ur major? and now, you are a law student, aren’t you?
@Kania
Di BI gue belajar International Business, karena setau gue cuma BI yang punya major ini. Gue mau jadi social entrepreneur. Gue udah melihat orang-orang terdekat gue kehilangan pekerjaan, dan gue mau menciptakan pekerjaan buat orang-orang seperti mereka. Amin. Oh ya, sama bikin sekolah yang ngasih banyak beasiswa untuk anak-anak brilian dan kreatif!
I like writing, but I don’t feel like studying it and do it for the rest of my life. I find writing very interesting, but I want to do heaps of things besides that, and I need the knowledge to do the ‘other things’. Kalau gue nggak keterima di UI dan nggak dapat beasiswa di BI, gue sih ambil Komunikasi di UMN
semoga yang terbaikk yaa alanda…
mmg kumpul2 di universitas itu ngga penting banget…hhe
all the best wishes for you dear…
@Nadhira
Terima kasih atas doanya. Amin amin!
Haha, it’s funny that bie still remember.
Yeah a bit of that and actually more on the embarrassement thing
Dan temen Alanda 1 lagi yang masih berharap is here. Haha.
I am sure you have made the right decision in Binus, Nda. Because in my experience, and I’m sure in yours also, following one’s heart always leads to the right path. Always.
So have faith, madame. You’re on your way to becoming a creative, social entrepreneur! (amin) Exciting stuff.
@Ghian Tjandaputra Muhammad
Hope so. Yes, I do have faith. AMIN! And you’re on your way to becoming the next president.
Nice! Sukses terus yah!
hey Alanda, you’re very brave! it must be a very hard decision for you! well actually i did face that situation months ago, but luckily it’s already settled
you’ve got it right by trusting your heart. because it’s the quality of the person that matters, not the uni. congrats & good luck for you!
btw, i like your writings a lot!
it’s very inspiring!
@Angel
Hey Angel. Glad to hear that your situation has been settled. And, glad that you like my writings a lot! Hope I can always inspire people
I fully understand your struggle, been there done that. I had to give up so many dreams for my family. I was always interested in music and language (Japanese particularly). Tapi mom and dad selalu bilang kedua area itu nggak akan bisa kasih makan kamu di kemudian hari (ouch!). Plus, as the eldest child, my dad mengharapkan aku untuk meneruskan perusahaan dia, jadi dia pengen aku ambil Business degree.
I guess we can’t have everything we want. Aku berusaha untuk melihat semua dari sisi positif, setidaknya I had the chance to live in Sydney for nine years. I learned so much from living here all alone dari umur 17….happiness, sadness, disappointment, hurt and pain, betrayal, you name it. As with uni life, I struggled in the beginning coz I kept thinking, “if only I had the chance to learn music deeper….or go to Japan to study Japanese literature, I would be happier”. But soon I realised we’re human…we’re built to adapt…and since I already made the decision to follow my parents wish, then might as well jalanin dengan positivity. I ended up malah suka banget dengan Business degree…even graduated my MBA.
So whatever the decision you’re making, whether it’s right or wrong…I’m sure everything will work its way out…that’s life. Oh, and KEEP PRAYING for His guidance every step of the way =)
You’re a good girl and you’re smart…I’m sure one day you’ll conquer this world!! All the best, Alanda! =)
Never give up!! ~and keep smiling with your head up high~
@Audrey
Thank you so much for the comment!
Mbak Audreyyy! Whoa you read my blog! Yes, I know, and I think I have made the most ‘appropriate’ decision for my life. And, you see, you will live with music anyway I suppose, and it will start when you got back home.
ehehe, goodluck for us then
let me know kalo lo maenmaen ke Unair al :))
i totally understand your view. in fact, i am a UI graduate and the only thing that urged me to take Masters in Nottingham University soon after I attained my bachelor degree was because i felt i had nothing to offer and be proud of. not to disrespect UI in any way, but I personally felt like i spent my 4 years doing non-stop assignments that took me nowhere but exhausted. i didn’t become “someone”, just someone with good grades. Masters got me to that level of becoming “someone”, cuz I felt that I learned and progressed a lot.
anyway, i wish you all the best. i am certain you’ll do GREAT in Binus…remember, not many people have such advanced thinking like you do..so keep it up and spread it to everyone around you…xoxo
@Diana Rikasari
Hope I can spread it to everyone, of course!
Thank you for sharing, Diana. I even feel much better now! Thank you so much for your faith in me also
Congrats! You chose with your heart.
That’s like the best decision ever in my opinion.
May the future be even more wonderful for the people who chose with their heart and go with their guts!
@Dirtsa
Yes, I did. Hope so. Thanks!
Alanda you have made the right decision
@Ollie
Glad to hear that
waw. Alanda, I really like your point of view, your decision so you can have your own way of life.I know it must be a hard time when you decide it. But, I hope that’s the best for you…Until now, I am still learning what do I have to do for my life, what I search for. and I’m happy to know that there is someone who can show me what she though it is best to think outside and get out from her comfort zone. I have to learn more from you. Regards=)
@vinavinavina
Love.
You will find your own way, I guarantee. Don’t forget to ask for God’s suggestions too
Really like your post and your decision as well. getting into state uni is just a bonus, the real gift is taking major based by our passion.
I really want to get into communication (journalism) UI so badly, hopefully i can get it next year. some friends asked me “whats your another choice in UI ?” and i answered ” I dont know, because i dont have”, thats the one and only major that i want, if the worst thing happen i will get into another uni ( even if its private uni) or wait a year until the 2nd chance come.
Good luck alanda
@arya
Do your best. But if you don’t get it, I think you should not waste your time. Just enjoy and do your best in another uni. Btw, we still have UNPAD, UGM, UNAIR, UIN, UNJ, other than UI… remember?
Ah, jadi teringat pengalaman sendiri sekian tahun yang lalu (iya iya saya sudah tua :p). Waktu itu gagal diterima SPMB dan orangtua gue (yang dua2nya lulusan FHUI) kecewa sampai menjalankan aksi perang dingin sama aku
Jadi sebenernya MaBim di universitas swasta yang tadinya disiapin cuma buat ‘cadangan’ udah mulai duluan daripada pengumuman SPMB, dan kok hati ini udah terlanjur merasa nyaman di sana. Diskusi dengan orangtua kemungkinan untuk tetap di universitas swasta meskipun diterima di UI, dan tidak disetujui. Akhirnya gue berdoa untuk diberikan jalan yang terbaik. Pas pengumuman, jeng jeng jengggg, nggak masuk UI.
Sampai saat ini, gue nggak kecewa bahwa gue nggak masuk UI. Karena di kampus gue merasa belajar sangat banyak hal, bertemu dengan banyak orang pintar dan menarik, dan gue merasa bener-bener bertumbuh ya di kampus.
So, whether or not you made the right choice can only be determined by yourself, and how you make the best of your opportunities. All the best of luck for you
hey alanda! just because you didn’t get into FHUI, doesn’t mean you’re stupid. you are a smart girl
universitas unggulan belum tentu menjamin kesuksesan seseorang, sukses atau nggaknya kan tergantung niat dan usaha kita, universitas hanya jadi media kita untuk menuju kesuksesan itu. di sekitar saya banyak sarjana lulusan dari universitas swasta tapi justru nasibnya jauh lebih baik daripada sarjana lulusan dari PTN terkemuka. kalau kata ibu saya orang yang berani melawan arus ialah orang yang akan sukses di masa depan. saya rasa kamu termasuk pada golongan tersebut. saya yakin kelak kamu akan sukses. amin
Don’t pay any attention to those who talk behind your back, what is right is what you choose to do. Good luck for your college!
What you did, never failed to surprise me. So proud of you Alanda. Saya yakin banyak yang inspired just by reading your blog. Keep it going, good luck.
@Anti
Thank you for being proud of me. I hope so, thanks for the wishes as well!
But how could one live in this world if people who writes crappy romance paperback is the one who gets to make money when they’re very young. How in the world that I could low myself to such quality in order to survive in your world. So-called educated people, shamefully tasteless, I can’t. How in the world that I could afford all those expensive gadgets of yours, all those allowances your parents gave you every month? Indonesia sucks ass. And will continue to suck ass. And how in the world that I can escape my fate from an incredibly crappy family and a father who has a second family to finance? I can’t even afford a good blouse to impress my friends. Yet, I excelled in all exams. But hey, it won’t do you good, not at all. Criminology? Whatever. Make sure you talk a lot, and have a lot of friends. God bless you.
@crappy
Dear you, thank you for the comment, although unfortunately I cannot fully understand it. To be noted, my parents do not give me allowances anymore, I bought the gadgets I now (thankfully can) own with my money, because I worked while I was studying in high school and during holidays. I think every family has their own problems–mine too, not only yours–but I chose not to share it to the people that I don’t personally know. Let it remains as my family’s problem, and let it remains in my heart and mind. Because I believe, that having a – as people say – “dysfunctional” family is not an appropriate excuse to do bad things. Children who came from a “different” family, like me (and perhaps you-I don’t know), only had to grow up a little earlier than the others. My family’s condition was one of the main reasons why I wrote a book, why I tried my best to get scholarships (or even finance my own studies), and why I was used to be alone. Although I wrote things like you’ve read, my life is not that beautiful–but I believe that only depends on how we see our lives. It’s short, so I’ll just have to sit back and relax–and live. If I know you, I believe that I would be very impressed to have a friend who excels in all exams like you! You’ll be successful someday, I guarantee. God bless you too!
alandaaaa! I’ve just read this. now I know why you left us (read: UI) haha
UI gak sebagus yang kamu bayangin kok lan.. binus pilihan yang bagus juga gitu! sesuai sama fakta2 yang kamu paparin ituu
goodluck then Alanda!
miss you
xxx
hehe lo hampir jadi junior gw kalo masuk krim
@Dipta Nirbito
Halloooo Kak! 
Udah sempet masuk kok seminggu, tapi sebelum OSPEK
Hm, I think you’ll be a somebody someday. You had decided one of hard choices in your young age. I believe God has something special for you.
@panah hujan
I hope so. Yes, I believe God has something very special for each of his/her creature.
hahahaha main2 dong ke fisip lihat temen2 lo hehe (ga penting gtu). eh btw td 2009 br bikin acara annual krim, lomba nasgor.
@Dipta Nirbito
SEGERAAA! Kangen
My choice. My world. You only read the story. hmm, g suka kata2 itu..seperti morrissey bilang di lagunya alma matters:
So the choice I have made
May seem strange to you
But who asked you, anyway?
maju terus alanda!
@maur si caur
Hehehe makasih Umar!
Dear Sister Alanda,
I am so happy to read your blog. You are one such brave person who knows how to follow her dreams. You can go to Harvard. Believe it! I did because I followed my dreams. They do come true.
As your brother, let me know if you need help and guidance. I am always here. Just an email or chat away.
I miss Indonesia! =)
Arnel
@Arnel Casanova
OMG!!! I did not expect that I would find a comment from you on my blog, since you are very, very busy, I know. Thank you so much for the comforting words
There has always been a big hole in my heart for not being accepted in University of Indonesia’s School of Law. But, someone convinced me that they would have regretted for not having me there (–> this already happened! :p), and now you have just convinced me that I CAN go to Harvard (waiting for this one to happen too :D)!
Now the big hole has been filled already with an enormous number of awesome things. I know that I can make my dreams come true. I’ll definitely update you with stuff in my life through e-mail! Miss you so much, Brother!