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10 Oct
I am back on my own now: writing with my own fingers, seeing the world with my own eyes, listening to things with my own ears. Just me, and only me, and I think I’ll be fine. I have changed a lot. I used to be a hopeless romantic… hell, yes. But, now? Not anymore. I think it’s about time to start being realistic about everything in life, because life is not a fairytale, it’s not even a book. Let God writes the story–I think God is much better in us in terms of everything, including writing. And God writes real things, and I have to adapt with that.
I always have a hard time of letting something be. I have these dreams, these goals, that I really want to achieve. When I know that I can achieve it, I have to achieve it, no matter what. With one person, I already had those dreams. They are gone now. I have to let them be. And don’t ask why, because I did not want this either, but I have to let it be.
Maybe you have read the story… but well, if you are curious, my life is not that beautiful, and my life is not that good. I am just a human, like you. I am trying to make a difference, I am trying to make a betterment, in myself, in my surroundings, in my world. I want to be inspired, and I want to inspire others. Which is why, I have to be seen as a strong, wonder girl. I have to be seen as an inspiring person. I want to have an impact in the society, no matter how small it is, but I want it to be a good and remarkable one.
Emotionally, yes, I have lost something–one of the things that I used to admire the most. It left… with a reason that I personally could not explain, and still can’t.
I magically believe that God has a great reason of why this is happening, and God has a cool plan for me. I will just have to sit back, relax, enjoy life… right? I am back on track already. I am living my life to the fullest… without the goggles for a while. 
WHAT DID I TELL ‘YA GIRL!!!! THAT’S MY ADVICE RIGHT THERRRRRRRRRRE! man i need to wake up to probably, being a hopeless romantic leads you nowhere
yo kiddo! are you saying that you…. i need details, kiddo! asap!
@Ash!
Can we do it on Skype?
Well, Nda, sorry if I sound like trying to get into your privacy, but actually I dont meant to. I dont know about your problem, but as a good reader of yours, I’d like to say that believing in God’s plan is a good thing. Maybe God is testing your patient now, and Im sure that the decision and answer will come along silently while youre getting yourself busy, enjoy this life.
I have a big dream too, and it is more related to my own ego. I dont think that my dream will be useful for Indonesia, since it’s really like achieving my own passion. But optimistic still comes as the day passes, I can still make a breaktrough and bring Indonesia name to be known by the whole universe. I’ll post an entry about this thing someday, if you have a time, i hope you can drop a comment of it.
Talking about dream is fun
@Sheyka
Yup yup, indeed. Glad that I could read about your dream. Of course, my dream is just the same, achieving my own goals, doing the things I am passionate about. Sure do, just let me know through Twitter/Facebook, aite! Yes, it is!
Life is a roller coaster; it’s thrilling, exciting, sometimes you’re on top and sometimes on the bottom. And hey, it’s short, so you better enjoy it while you can.
@Cassandra Niki
Sooooo, true!