Everything Changed
16 Jan
2009 was an eventful year for me. Indeed, it was. A lot of things happened, and all of them left a great impact in my life. I turned 18, and I think I grew up. I used to think that being a grown up is sad. I am a person who believes that being a child is somehow magical, and childhood is the best stage in our lives. When I was a child, I was not that happy. I had to witness the things any child would never have to see. Last year, I experienced some things that anyone would never experience. The good and the bad ones.
In 2009, I learned so much. But sometimes, when it’s too much, you can’t handle it, because the cup is full and it can’t contain. Yet, I have always needed someone who could contain me. I had one.
Ever since university started, I have changed, into something I don’t know yet exactly. And I am not really happy about that.
For someone as Pisces as I am, it feels funny to be so rational about things. I now rarely use my feelings. Using my brain and mind would be enough, using my logical intelligence would be enough, using the rules would be enough. I keep my feelings somewhere else, for it to be save, for it to be untouchable. I don’t know when I would want to open the treasure chest again. Because something in it is broken, and I desperately need a glue, or an ICU to make it fixed, to make it healed.
I am trying to steal my old-self back, from something I don’t really know what. Well, we all have to admit that change is the only constant thing in this world. People told me that “change is good”. I don’t feel the same.
In 2009, I learned so much. But sometimes, when it’s too much, you can’t handle it, because the cup is full and it can’t contain.–>gue suka banget kata2 yang ini
@ribkha
Me too
2009 WAS AWESOME
@aisha
At some points, yes :3
hey, glad for having such as awesome year.
and, oh, i prefer this template! it’s pink anyway, looks cuter!
@dela
I like it too
you know what…life is like a game sometimes we win and sometimes we learn..and changes are part of it!
@andrykidd
Exactly, thanks Andry
Yeah, I feel that being in college changed me too. Changes ARE good sometimes, but when you lose yourself, it’s pretty clear you’ve done something wrong.
@Cassandra Niki
Change is good! You have turned yourself from a photographer (and stalker) to a genius writer
hi, nice blog. This is my 1st visit to your blog.
I hope you’ll have great year in 2010, Alanda.
@Nitya
Hi, Nitya. Thank you. I will visit your blog too, some time. I hope you’ll have a great year as well