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I feel like I’m being exploited.. by myself. I torture myself doing these things everyday. My body is very tired, so is my mind, but I keep thinking.. about many things. I miss that smile. You can see myself smiling up there :)
So, TCFT will hold an event which will contain musical performances from well-known bands (you should come if you flow with indie bands), art exhibition (painting and photography), eco-friendly products exhibition, trash bins and BIG donation boxes. We’ll also have carbon calculators, recycling workshop, movie screening, and a hell lot more. The problem is, we don’t have enough money for now.
On March, we divided the committee into a few teams to do the fundraising. I targeted that each team will have to collect money with IDR 5 millions as the minimum amount by May 5th, 2008. I already accomplished my part, but none of my friends have. Gee, May 5th is next Monday. What should I do? I’m restless and I don’t sleep well every night. I keep printing proposals, calling sponsors, anything I can do. I even skipped classes and most of my mid-term examination results are below 75 (which means: remedial). I got so bad on Math and Chemistry, my results were do-re-mi. I had never gotten that low for examination results. Not to brag, but I usually did well, even though I’ve never been the top of the class.
Sometimes I think I need to stop. I need to stop trying to save the world. I need to stop trying to make my parents proud, they will never be. Sometimes I think I’m doing this TCFT all by myself and the other members don’t have the same possessive feeling like I’ve always have in my heart and mind. Sometimes. Sometimes. Sometimes I’m pessimistic about everything. More.. I’m skeptic.
Guys, if you want to be a part of our event by giving sponsorship or donations, comment this post. I’ll call you right away. Thank you for reading my dull and weird days, people.
Love,
Alanda
April 29, 2008 at 1:26 pm
I wonder why kids are yearning of their parents acceptance that usually never comes?
The idea of making parents proud doesn’t register in me. I just dont get it.
But anyway,
Just keep going.
And take a break from everything once in a while before you burn out.
It will all worth it in the end.
It will.
*moral support*
Thank you so much, Astrud. Haha yeah, I know, I just want them to be happy although it’s almost impossible :D
May 1, 2008 at 7:34 am
sabar ya ndo, aishong niat banget ko keliatan tuh :(
emang kalo mau ngedonate kemana sih? i feel like donating now oh and good news, i will make it to attend the summit! YAAAYYYY!! i’m soo friggin happy :D
Yes, I know, hahaha. Yang niatnya kurang begitu keliatan tuh members yang sekedar daftar doang, atau “tim hore”-nya TCFT, LOL. But I really appreciate everything they have done, though, biarpun sedikit, it’s okay. Really. What I wrote were my feelings when I was down, that’s all. Ngedonate ke mana ya? Lo di Sydney sih, hahaha. If possible, you can transfer to money to my account though, I’ll withdraw and give it to the treasurer immediately. Thank youuu yah, Len! :)